Broken Fortunes

When things don’t go exactly as you believed they would you begin to understand the saying expect the unexpected. But why is it that things you completely expect to happen never do? Why is it what we expect escapes us? And that makes us believe that we should never expect anything, but that would just be dull. We never expect to win the lottery but there are people out there who win, therefore we have to expect something. And that’s the game of gambling, we can’t possibly know the outcome of life but we have a guess and hope it pays off. However, there are some very lucky few that with a little reputation behind them get everything they want. Is this something that will last forever or, will our time come, will we get everything? What is it about reputation that makes all the difference? If its true that any publicity is good publicity then why aren’t we all famous and fulfilling our dreams? Recently I’ve been wondering why does great public relations get us a great personal relationship?

It’s not often that I get to writing about relationships, but its not often that I get the chance. Why is it that when we think we’re close to winning the gold medal it slowly slips to silver? And even though we got ourselves a medal it doesn’t feel as good and it doesn’t taste as good as the real thing. When there is someone you like it seems the lesson has been learnt, never should you hold back with your feelings, restricting ourselves will never help us win, and we’ll probably never forgive ourselves. We cannot know what taking the other path would be like, we have to accept the path we are on and assume control, but are we ever in control?

If, like they say we have to expect the unexpected, how can we? Since the unexpected can’t be expected; we therefore we have no way of knowing. That is why despite what we know now we cannot assume we know about tomorrow. This week a psychic on Oxford Street offered to read my fortune and upon considering I came to the conclusion that even if this man knew what was in store for me, would it really benefit me to know? If I knew what was going to happen tomorrow would I care living today? The final nail for me was when he said ‘I don’t tell nothing bad.’ Because although we cannot want bad things to happen we have to understand that there will be times where we struggle and if there wasn’t none then this guy could not really know about tomorrow. And so I declined, because tomorrow is something I must work for today.

There are trials in life that we must all face, the devastating losses, the breakups and break downs, the cold winters and gloomy summers. There are days when we wake up to realise mountains that held high are crushed and fallen, there are days when structures indestructible become no more, the titanic, the twin towers, Lehman Brothers. Could any of these be expected? But this is life. Like a business cycle, like any cycle, there will be tough times, there will be tough decisions, companies will come and go, people may die and our feelings will be like the stock markets; falling and in decline. But there are glory days, there may be few, but these are the days of life. This is living.

You see, we can’t always expect the best, because it is not always available. We can love with all our heart and not be loved back. And PR can only be short term, celebrities don’t stay clean forever, they can’t. Everyone has his or her own inhibitions. They are on their highs while others are on their lows. The world holds a delicate balance of happiness. And if like me you’re on the wrong end of the cycle there are times to come. There are times of love to come. There are times of great glory, and if I’m just serving my harsh time in demise for the past couple of years, then the cycle must be close to an end and I can only hope that forever is a time of happiness, because happily ever after sounds good and I don’t need no psychic to tell me that.