Pride and Prejudice.

While it’s true that we are all alone in this life, that we walk with one pair of feet and that our heart beats as one inside our chest, we cannot sometimes help loving someone for walking with their feet beside our own and for their heart beating in unison to the rhythm of ours. But finding that heart is a difficult process. First do we let our heart open so widely as to attract the wrong people and let it be hurt so fast? Or do we shut it and risk never letting people know while we watch them fade away; hurting us all the same? And second what are our circumstances? Are we ready? And if so will our lives let us have a relationship take it over? In the movies we always find that people drop their plans or journeys for the one they love. Isn’t it always the case that we have to lose something to gain a relationship? Isn’t it always the case that when we have a pocket full of sunshine our hands are always tied?

As I sit and watch peoples lives fall apart around me, I noticed what I have is so special and wonder why I deserve this joy, while just a couple of posts ago I was hurting inside and wondering what did I do to deserve this pain? It’s amazing what a little social life can do and also how seeing the truth can benefit all of us. You begin to notice the people who you thought were friends that you found out had other agendas and people who you once thought had other agendas become very good friends. But people come into your life for a reason and normally the bad people who enter your life give you an added little extra that they don’t know they’re giving you and you don’t know you’re receiving it until it hits you, and in my case hits you on the lips. When I met that ‘little extra’ I found I wasn’t that intrigued at all. But then when I found my feet in our friendship I took it a step further, you could say I developed an agenda but one to benefit us both. Our hearts began beating in sync.

I’ve never let my heart open as much as it has recently. Maybe there are people out there with the key to your heart or maybe just the confidence and the knowledge that you are wanted, that someone feels a closeness and need for you boosts your confidence and your aura to develop this newer you. People say you know when you’re in love, but I know this is not love, nor has anything before this been love, but this is a change from an introvert to an extrovert, this is just development, movement, a change of the winds. Change is hard to deal with, but what if the change is a good change? Normally when change is bad it affects you directly, but when change is good it boosts you and depletes others, they may resent you for it, even argue with you about it, but then change is bad for you again. Right? But why should feel bad for feeling good?

Love is something I can’t write about, because I don’t want to judge books by their covers. For I was once a book with an abnormal cover compared to those I was next to. But when someone comes along and finds a great novel behind that cover the others start to change, you become a bestseller and you find that while all the others have to put up with change hurting them, you are the same book you always were with the same cover and you are still selling out. So the reason we can’t grab our pocket full of sunshine is because we’re always putting up with change, so the be the person you are, excel in the places your heart believes in and understand yourself because then come rain or shine the sun is yours. Just don't punish the others books on the shelf with your success because they are holding you upright and the fall is along way down. And as for the movies, the books are always better anyway!

Be true to yourself.