Monday 23 February 2009

And the winner isn't...


What are we waiting for? This is the question that plagues so many, in life we tend to dither and delay, and in London it’s common practice for delays. A train, airports, taxis, buses and finally people. In fact, we actually expect a delay. Is this the secret to waiting? If we expect something to be late then we can be pleasantly surprised when it turns up early, or just have our expectations met. But however, it’s not that simple. In life there are different people going different speeds demanding different requirements. Expectations vary, as do tempers. What if we’re waiting for something but not doing anything to chase it up? What if we’re asking no questions, can we expect no answers? Millions ask everyday, “when is my big break?”

In the devilish field of Hollywood and the bursting cauldron of aspiring actors the questions arises daily. When will the evil beast pluck them from the pot and place them on a star in Hollywood Boulevard? It comes down to a problem of chance. The problem of probability. It is however, not an easy equation to develop. It depends on exposure, looks, and actual real talent. All of which cannot be measured in centimetres and litres. What if you have 2 out of the 3 and you cannot find anyone to help you with the third. That is if the third can be helped! I talk of exposure.

In life, we all dream, we live in hope of something better and something achievable but at a stretch; because if it were easy we wouldn’t have to dream. But why is it always so far away? Why does it feel like a way to road where it lives? And why does it start looking like it’s not worthwhile?

If in life we are all waiting for something, however big it may be, then we also have question, rather not when but if it will come? It is this question, which scares us. It is this one that shakes our beliefs and it is this one that we put off and put off and put off. But the question we should really ask is not if it’s coming but if it’s attainable? If the answer is yes, then it’s coming. And if it’s no, then its coming, but you’re not trying hard enough.

Whether we’re waiting for a new job, a new home, a new baby, or just news, we all face the same anticipation. So do we lower our expectations to increase our chances? Or do we follow practice and maintain our standards? This is choice that can only be taken individually. But it is an age-old question found mainly in a conversation involving men and dating.

Sometimes there are those who know something bad is coming soon and don’t know when. A dark cloud that looms over the horizon and develops slowly. This type of event we don’t anticipate and never expect and this is when expecting the unexpected gets unexpected. Because just as fast as life comes in, it goes out. The candle fades and all that we leave is the misty smoke of our memory to linger.

And just like that, I realised. We don’t get nowhere by dreaming. But chasing.

Because your big break is precisely that, ‘your’ big break. And it’s up to you when it is.

P.S. Apologies on the almost 2 month gap with nothing! Time flies when your having fun.